The Purpose

NOTE: THIS WAS IN COLLEGE.

It was in the month of October when I came across a verse that took a month for me to figure it all out. Let me share my journey to what and how this scripture changed my view on things and the relationship that I have with God and with people.

Here's the verse: 

The Lord God said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by. Then a GREAT AND POWERFUL WIND tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an EARTHQUAKE, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake CAME A FIRE, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came A GENTLE WHISPER. When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave. Then a voice said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?" - 1 Kings 19:11-13

Between those weeks, I consulted two friends of mine for help. I told them that verse and neither one of them knew what it really meant. They gave some insights and it helped, but their answers never gave me satisfaction. I knew there was something more in God's Word that I just couldn't put a finger on. It's deep. It's unique. It's a purpose.

Weeks have passed, whenever I would devote, I would always check that scripture first. And for some reason, my mind was always blocked. I would always ask for clarification and emptiness, but He just wouldn't answer until a few days ago.

I'm a fourth year student. And part of our curriculum in our course is taking up, On-the-Job Training. Due to my class schedule and the possible schedule that I would take up (if in case the company would permit), complications may arise. The percentage of me not going to class on time is really high. But on the other side, it's a company that I would like to enter into. Three of my friends are there and it would really be a slap in the face if I was the only one left out. So it was a battle between my thoughts if I should pursue it or not. So what did I do? I asked for God's Word. I needed the help. And the Word that He gave me, was that verse again.

It was last Tuesday night that I started reading it again and just paused. I felt like it was the time for me to know His message. As I was reading it, the three calamities that showed were the wind, the earthquake, and the fire. And these three resembled my feelings. The wind resembled my decision. Just like the wind, I could't decide. I wasn't stable. Then the earthquake resembled my worries. I was worried about my schedule and the time being so short. And finally, the fire. It resembled my anger. I was moody because I really wanted to be in the company with my friends. As hope seemed to be lost, I read the next words. It said, "And after the fire came a gentle whisper."

Elijah, at that time, retreated. His fear engulfed him from accomplishing God's purpose for his life. But when he entered a cave in the mountain of Horeb (or Mt. Sinai) he heard a gentle whisper. And that whisper made him cover his face with his cloak. When I read it, I knew that God was already speaking to me. I eventually knew what to do. Through God's gentle whisper, I surrendered to Him. I didn't want to wrestle anymore. That night, He blessed me. And now I know where I stand. I thank Him because I know that His purpose will be accomplished.